Informed by my reading of the work by Resmaa Menakem as well as Tada Hozumi it’s important to see that trauma is also embodied, inter-generational, historical as well as institutional and political. The trauma has a huge impact on a person’s ability to process and handle certain emotions and experiences.
There is much writing on c-ptsd (see below for recommended links and books) but the key points are that complex PTSD is common and that it’s caused by developmental trauma, either by one off events or actions that are ongoing throughout or within childhood/adolescence. There is a wealth of valuable material in those books and posts but, to help with understanding now, I will outline a few of the key concepts.
Fight flight freeze fawn cptsd plus#
It made sense on many levels but it was only when I also read Recovery: a book for adult children of alcoholics plus some posts on C-ptsd by Meg John Barker that I began to truly understand what I had been experiencing and why. Having had it recommended by someone I respected and trusted, I read the Pete Walker book on Complex-ptsd twice. It was the lack of creativity and kindness that felt the cruellest – who was I, I despaired? This person who felt so lacking in empathy that they met every text with an eye-roll, this person who had written almost nothing for months… Where was the me I was sure I could recall from only a few years ago? Who wrote a novel? Who cared and gave of themselves? Who was playful, sexy, fun? The anger that would come on me in a flash, the days of a dulled mind and inertia where I would re-read old novels, mindlessly eat and dead scroll for hours. My short temper and the fact that I was so very irritable so very often. I was aware of some of my issues prior to the Covid-19 lockdown. It was after my most recent emotional flashback experience and a few days of illness that I began to see how the lockdown months have gifted me a few insights that I’m not sure I would’ve gained had it not happened. CW: C-ptsd, alcoholism, parenting, conflict, trauma, menstruationĪs someone who has actively avoided all of the “The silver lining of lockdown is…” type articles, I’m surprised to be sat here at the middle-end of May 2020 writing one.
0 kommentar(er)
